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if it were voices instead of colors...
there would be an unbelievable shrieking into the heart of the night.

holding it all,
i try, i
close my eyes
to rest from dreams
let sleep
sew the seams
faded fabrics
torn and frayed pieces
like pages in notebooks
bound by discovery

rest to recover
peeling back, layer by layer
an orange rind, a spiral
peel back, layer by layer
recover from
the daily nose to the grindstone
america, i've given you everything and now i am nothing
recover, my dreams
america, i'm putting my queer shoulder to wheel
an act with faith that i never fall apart
because i never fall together
peeling back to discover
silient pieces
peeling back the rind, to
unwind the grind and grow
towards someone kind
-.-
ebb and flow is (all i know)
seek to understand
rise for air
rise like water up
tree trunks
out branches of forests
where everything is blooming most recklessly
bursting in vibrant colors
she said-
we owe it to ourselves to recreate ourselves
and find a different if not better way to live
peel back, layer, peel back
the rind, unwind the grind
and walk into the guest house
everymorning a new arrival
another piece, another
fray and faded piece
wanting to belong to something greater
community, collective
belong belong belong,
see me, let me live with purpose
my dignity is here
amidst bread and poetry
in open veins that do not end in me
sitting here sewing
patchwork pieces
seam by seam
close my eyes to rest from dreams
colors and shrieking voices
vision, peace
accompany ( ...) as we move through the world
peace,
thought
peace,
word
peace,
face
peace,
choice
peace,

ebb and flow is all i know
peace
peel back, layers
awareness burns like sunshine
scorching and blinding and guiding
you would rather throw stones
at a mirror?
i am the mirror, here are the stones

blink and breathe
rest, closed eye reprieve

hope in rest
dream awakens with you
rising like the sun
burning with duty, dignity
along the ebb and flow
(all i know)

serenity? perhaps
part of a greater community? perhaps
peace by piece
peace by piece

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influences by
r.m. rilke, j. rumi, b. iver, j. smith, t.n. hanh, r.dalton, a. ginsberg, m. mbaye